Mommy Dearest(A Eulogy) (Explicit) - Boldy James/Sterling Toles

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词：Sterling Toles/James Clay Jones III

曲：Sterling Toles/James Clay Jones III

制作人：Sterling Toles

Sometimes I feel like a motherless child

有时我感觉自己像个无母的孤儿

Get out of line and I'm gunnin' you down, so stay in single file

越界者必遭枪击 所以请排好队形

'Fore you in the line of fire, tryna renege

在你踏入火线前 试图反悔已太迟

Like you threw a nine of diamonds out when I led with spades

就像我出黑桃时 你竟丢弃方片九

And you sittin' trump tight

而你紧握着王牌

We got hand grenades, I pull this pin, it's goodnight

我们手握* 我拔掉插销便是永夜

Sleep tight, don't let the bedbugs bite

晚安 小心别被臭虫咬伤

Keep a razor blade or jagged-edge butcher knife

随身携带剃刀或锯齿屠刀

Street life - don't catch them lead slugs, strike or get struck

街头生存法则 - 要么先发制人 要么坐以待毙

Like a match, need a light? Light you up like a lamp

像火柴需要火种？让你如灯泡般炸裂

Lickin' shots like some cunt or a stamp

子弹舔舐目标如同舔舐*秽物*

With my lightning and thunderous twin Five-seveNs

我手持雷电轰鸣的双生FN57

Mommy, my aunties and grandma are stressin'

妈妈 阿姨和外婆终日忧心忡忡

That I need a job, but I can't stop peddlin' drugs

她们要我找正经工作 可我戒不掉贩毒营生

With them Drug Zone ConCreature Spartans

与毒窟那些斯巴达般的亡命之徒为伍

I don't show love, I'm heartless

我早已不懂何为温情 只剩铁石心肠

'Cause she don't even love me like she did when I was younger

因为她不再像儿时那般疼爱我

Seems to me she's showing favoritism to my younger

似乎她更偏爱我的弟弟

Sibling, thinking,"I wonder if he even love me"

我不禁怀疑 他是否还爱我

I love you, I just got a fucked up way of showin' it

我爱你 只是用错了表达方式

'Cause she don't even—

因为她甚至不再——

Askin' our mommy,"Where Daddy went?"

我们问妈妈："爸爸去哪了？"

To our daddy,"Where Mommy at?"

又去问爸爸："妈妈在哪？"

Him tellin' me,"She ain't comin' back"

他却告诉我："她不会回来了"

Me lookin' at my four-year-old sister

望着四岁妹妹稚嫩的脸庞

Tears runnin' down her poor little dimples, damn

泪水滑过她凹陷的小酒窝 该死的

Memories when it was hard for your little mans

回忆你小儿子艰难度日的时光

Can it be that it was all so simple then?

难道那时的生活竟如此简单纯粹？

Tellin' me that you was on your way to come see me

你总说正在赶来见我的路上

And left me sittin' on the porch in the rain, freezing

却让我在雨中门廊冻得发抖

Had me feelin' like an orphan, the pain stingin'

让我像个孤儿般痛苦难当

And gettin' stung by a hornet ain't the same, neither

被黄蜂蜇伤也不及这般痛楚

It run further and way deeper

这伤痛比心碎更深 比困惑更痛

Than a heartbreakin', mind-bogglin' brain freezer

如同冰封大脑般令人窒息

Tellin' James that what I'm never sellin' dope

我曾向詹姆斯发誓绝不贩毒

And when he said,"Never", that's when he let me know

当他说"永远别"时 才让我真正明白

To never say never, because you never know

永远别说永远 因世事难料

And if you love someone, let 'em know

若你爱一个人 就该让他知道

'Cause she don't even love me like she did when I was younger

因为她不再像儿时那般疼爱我

Seems to me she's showing favoritism to my younger

似乎她更偏爱我的弟弟

Sibling, thinking,"I wonder if he even love me"

我不禁怀疑 他是否还爱我

I love you, I just got a fucked up way of showin' it

我爱你 只是用错了表达方式

'Cause she don't even love me like she did when I was younger

因为她不再像儿时那般疼爱我

Suckin' on her breast just to stop my fuckin' hunger

吮吸乳汁只为止住饥饿的折磨

Since I was a itty-bitty baby in her stomach

从她腹中那小小婴孩时起

I know my mother wish she got a—wish she got a—wish she got a

我知道母亲多希望...多希望...多希望...

Dear, dear Mommy dearest, I'm dying to live so I stay strapped

亲爱的妈妈 我渴望活着所以随身带枪

You tried to kill me, I died and I came back

你曾想杀死我 我死而复生

Not to mention I gotta deal white and sell crack

更别提我还得倒卖***和白粉

You gotta feel me, 'cause I ain't have them racetrack cars for Christmas

你得理解我 那年圣诞连玩具赛车都没有

Or a Nintendo, they stole 'em from us the night 'fore Christmas

任天堂游戏机也在平安夜被人偷走

The window was broken out the house we lived in

我们住的费尔菲尔德街区破窗漏风

On Fairfield, it was way back, I can remember

那些往事历历在目 我仍记得清楚

When I ain't had this Pyrex pot to whip in

那时连个煮毒品的玻璃器皿都没有

Or no endo to smoke a ounce of, a pot to piss in

没有**可抽 连个尿壶都缺

A window to throw it out of, now I'm shittin'

连扔毒品的窗户都没有 如今我却飞黄腾达

With this toilet tissue roll of dollars

用这卷钞票当厕纸

I wipe my ass with the Grants, I'm a hundred dollar dollar billin'

我用百元大钞擦屁股 现在我只认百元大钞

In Detroit, we get 'em on consignment

在底特律 我们靠赊账过活

I'm tryna get it 'cause now I'm on some other kinda type of shit

我要搞到钱 因为现在我要干票大的

That didn't kill me, now I'm stronger, mama

那些没杀死我的让我更坚强 妈妈

My fears, I learned to overcome 'em

我学会了战胜恐惧

Was there any particular song of yours you remember

你还记得自己有哪首歌

That she really, that she found super depressing?

让她觉得特别压抑吗

I referenced, uh, Biggie's song where he said, you know

我引用了Biggie那首歌里的词 你知道的

His mama wished she had a fuckin abortion

**妈多希望当初没把他生下来

I made a hook out of that line and it was just called"Mommy Dearest"

我用这句词写了首副歌 就叫《最亲爱的妈妈》

This, of course, is the Biggie track"Suicidal Thoughts"

这自然是采样自Biggie的《自杀念头》

From Ready To Die that Boldy sampled for"Mommy Dearest". Unfortunately,"Mommy Dearest" doesn't appear to be anywhere online

出自《Ready To Die》专辑 Boldy用来创作《最亲爱的妈妈》 可惜网上找不到这首歌

And because Boldy's out on tour

而且Boldy正在巡演

He was unable to get us the track in time for the release of this episode

没能及时把音轨发给我们做这期节目

The song's just dark, my man Sterling Toles

这歌太阴郁了 我兄弟Sterling Toles

He produced it, and he used to always tell me to be more personal

他曾教导我 创作要倾注更多真情实感

So, the more personal I got, the darker my music got

可当我剖开内心 音乐却愈发晦暗

And then people had to, like, bring me back to the light

直到人们将我拽回光明彼岸

And started telling me like,"Why don't you try to have fun

他们劝说着"何不让旋律欢快流转

And party more with your music?"

用音符酿造狂欢？"

So that's where we at with it now

这便是如今的转变

Mhm

'Cause she don't even love me like she did when I was younger

因为她不再像儿时那般疼爱我

Suckin' on her breast just to stop my fuckin' hunger

吮吸乳汁只为止住饥饿的折磨

Since I was an itty-bitty baby in her stomach

从我还是她腹中微小胎儿时便是如此

I know my mother wish she got a fuckin' abortion

我知道母亲多希望当初选择堕胎

You tried to kill me, I died, and I came—

你试图杀死我 我死去又重生——