How long have I got
In the hot light till the shine rusts?
I've been thinking through the hard stuff
Over light drugs like every night
No, you don't need to come over
'Cause I'd crowd please and I'm tired
Slowly morphed into a poser
Barely know her anymore
Do I look high-functioning or
Is my façade crumbling? Oh
God, don't actually answer me, Caroline
But oh well, look at my life
Bet you can't tell but it's kind of a bad time
A new spiral every night
Bawling my eyes out, no, but I'm so fine
Yeah, I might just shut up and drive
Hope I don't crash and blow out the headlights
My nightmare actualized
Got what I wanted, it doesn't sit right
I just got to the party