Drowning in My Own Heart - ArlenaZara
The evening sun is setting now
But my world is staying dark
A thousand memories hit me harder
Than a thousand times the mark
I'm standing at the kitchen sink
The water starts to fill
A slow and quiet rising
A promise to keep me still
The tears are flowing freely now
Mixed in with the simple tap
A river of emotions I
Can't put on any map
You used to be my anchor
The one who held me tight
Now I'm just a sinking ship
In the middle of the night
Cause I'm drowning in my own heart
In the sorrow and the grief
A permanent immersion
With no hope of any relief
The waves are made of memories
The current is your name
And I can't fight the feeling
It's a cruel and lonely game
I'm underwater
Suffocating, no air left to breathe
Just the pain of your absence
And the silence you did leave
Yeah, I'm drowning in my own heart
A sea of bitter blue
The world outside keeps spinning fast
A blur of life and light
But I'm a permanent fixture
In the middle of the night
My hands are reaching for the surface
Reaching for the air
But the weight of all the missing you
Is just too much to bear
I see a thousand futures where you are
In my arms again
But all I have is this deep ocean
Of the never-ending pain
They say that you should swim ashore
But I don't know the way
Just floating in the wreckage
Every single day
Cause I'm drowning in my own heart
In the sorrow and the grief
A permanent immersion
With no hope of any relief
The waves are made of memories
The current is your name
And I can't fight the feeling
It's a cruel and lonely game
I'm underwater
Suffocating, no air left to breathe
Just the pain of your absence
And the silence you did leave
Yeah, I'm drowning in my own heart
A sea of bitter blue
If hope was a lifeguard
It vanished with the door
There's nothing left to salvage
Nothing to fight for
This isn't a temporary break
A moment of the doubt
It's a permanent reminder
That the fire has gone out
I have to face the truth now
The bitter final word
The greatest tragedy of all
The love that died unheard
Cause I'm drowning in my own heart
In the sorrow and the grief
A permanent immersion
With no hope of any relief
The waves are made of memories
The current is your name
And I can't fight the feeling
It's a cruel and lonely game
Underwater
Suffocating, no air left to breathe
Just the pain of your absence
And the silence you did leave
Yeah, I'm drowning in my own heart
A sea of bitter blue
Drowning in my falling
All apart
Drowning in my heart
From the very start
Drowning in my own heart
Drowning in my own heart
Drowning in my own heart