I Lost My Voice Loving You - ArlenaZara
I swallowed words to keep the peace
Let my needs quietly decrease
I learned your silence like a song
Kept singing even when it was wrong
I held my breath, I bit my tongue
Chose your comfort always numb
I used to scream inside my chest
But loving you asked me to love you less
I thought staying quiet meant staying strong
Didn't know I was erasing me all along
I traded truth for harmony
And lost the girl I used to be
I lost my voice loving you
Every time I chose you over truth
I silenced tears, I swallowed pain
Just to keep you from walking away
I screamed inside but made no sound
Let myself slowly drown
I lost my voice loving you
And now I don't know how to speak the truth
I nodded yes when my heart said no
I let your world be all I know
I made myself smaller every day
So you'd never feel pushed away
Every fight I never won
Every tear I learned to run
I loved you loud inside my mind
But out loud I stayed behind
I thought love meant sacrifice
Didn't know it cost my life
I gave you space, I gave you air
But no one asked if I was there
I lost my voice loving you
Every time I chose you over truth
I silenced tears, I swallowed pain
Just to keep you from walking away
I screamed inside but made no sound
Let myself slowly drown
I lost my voice loving you
And now I don't know how to speak the truth
Maybe one day I'll speak again
Say my name without feeling shame
Learn that love should never ask
You to live behind a mask
I'll find the strength I gave away
Let my broken words finally say
I lost my voice loving you
But I'm learning how to start anew
I'll cry out loud, I won't pretend
I won't disappear again
I'll speak my truth, I'll make it through
Even if my voice still shakes
I lost my voice loving you
But finding it is what it takes
I lost my voice loving you
And I'm learning how to sing again