I Was Never Enough - ArlenaZara
I tried to be everything you needed
Even when I was running on air
I changed my colors to match the seasons
But you still weren't there
I learned your moves like a fragile map
Afraid one wrong step, I'd lose you
I kept shrinking just to fit in a world that never chose me
I held my breath every time you doubted
Prayed love would prove me right
I kept waiting for you to see me standing in your light
I was never enough
No matter how hard I tried
I gave you my whole heart
You asked for more each time
I loved you until I disappeared
Still, it wasn't enough
I broke myself just to be what you wanted
But I was never enough
I swallowed words that were killing me
Called it peace, called it love
I forgave things that broke my soul
Said it's what grown hearts do
I watched you reach for something else while I stood right beside you
I kept believing if I stayed, you'd finally choose me too
I blame my heart, I blame my scars
I blame the way I feel
Never blame the way you left or how you made it real
I was never enough
Not loud, not strong, not right
I stayed through all your darkness while you searched for another light
I lost myself inside your doubts
Still, it wasn't enough
I gave you everything I had
But I was never enough
Maybe love isn't meant to hurt like this
Or feel like constant proof
Maybe I was too busy loving you to see I deserve the truth
If loving you meant losing me, then
That was too much cost
I didn't fail at loving you
I failed at loving myself
I was never enough for someone afraid to stay
But I'm learning now you leaving doesn't mean I'm to blame
I'll rebuild what you couldn't see
From the pieces of my trust
I wasn't weak, I wasn't wrong
I was loving too much
I was never enough for you
But I'm enough for me