Cause those hands and lights can't stop me
I just hold on for dear life
Yeah I cant give up this feeling
That I get when lookin down from this high
So
They say it takes time to heal
But man I swear I’m sick of hearing it
Months have passed and lots of time
I promise I’m still feeling it
But feelings that I feel
Turn to harbor some resentment
And people in my way
Well shit man they can get it
So I push ‘em away
And put my feelings on the shelf
But it’s harmful in the end
To relationships and health
I’ve been hurt many times
I withdrew from how I felt
I just tucked it away
And tucked my head and propelled
Now I’m looking at a future living in the hills
And I hope that I acquire the skill to bring you chills
With my rhymes and my words
Adverbs to make it work
Double entendres with a surge to make you slur
Depression is a bitch and that bitch don’t love ya
It will weigh you out chop you up
Line you up to snuff you
And if you don’t stop it before it comes back again
Then I promise you that you will end up where I am
Damn
Cause those hands and lights can't stop me
I just hold on for dear life
Yeah I cant give up this feeling
That I get when lookin down from this high
At rock bottom right now
Been thinking suicide might be the answer again
Cause my mind's pushin' me away and locking me away in a pin
So all I can do is put my mind to this pen
And hope that it gets me out of this mess that I’m in
This is a message to my kin
If I do end up dying you're not the reason I put my life to an end
Depression is like a weight building from within
No one can heal it not even my fuckin' family or my friends
It’s bad when you don’t even feel good in your own skin
I'm not ugly and I'm not fat I'm just not confident
I gotta take back over my mind and be dominant
But I keep getting played like I'm an instrument
Cause these people not listenin' to the words you put on the beat
And it shows cuz some people hop on the mic and repeat
The same shit back to back and you call it some heat
I just spill out my feelings this is a therapy
Cause those hands and lights can't stop me
I just hold on for dear life
Yeah I cant give up this feeling
That I get when lookin down from this high
Depression has been takin over I feel like I'm losing myself
Starting to get afraid of my mental health I've handled
So gently for the past few years now it's catching up to me
And I think it's time to pay a fee
But not to me to the people watchin' and doubtin'
These people bitchin' and poutin'
Been smothered in pain feel like I'm drownin'
And I feel like I can't get anyone off my back for a second to breath
Just fuckin' listen to me
Cause in a couple months imma be living my dreams
But I wasn't doing this shit for me
But fuck it I guess that's what it's destined to be
So imma say fuck you to who anyone that doubted me
And if you supported then I'm thankful
Actually I am more then grateful
Because that's more than some people have ever given me
People start lookin at you differently
Cause you rappin' on a beat
I'm sorry I could be out passed out under a bridge asleep
Cause those hands and lights can't stop me
I just hold on for dear life
Yeah I cant give up this feeling
That I get when lookin down from this high
When I'm with you
When I'm with you
I'm with you
I'm with you