I Just Forgot - ArlenaZara
I stopped recognizing my face
Somewhere between love and waiting
I bent my knees, I broke my rules
Trying to be what you wanted me to
I laughed when I wanted to cry
Said I was fine way too many times
I gave you space, I gave you control
And slowly I let myself go
I thought losing me was the price of love
I didn't know that was too much
I let myself go just to keep you close
I silenced my heart so you wouldn't know
I faded away in the things I gave
I lost my voice, I lost my way
I let myself go
Never noticed the cost
I changed my colors to match your mood
Dimmed my light so you could shine through
I held my breath, I swallowed pride
Left parts of me unsaid inside
I stayed when leaving felt more true
Made excuses just to stay with you
I loved you hard, I loved you whole
But loving you cost my soul
I kept shrinking just to belong
I didn't see how wrong that was
I let myself go just to keep you close
I silenced my heart so you wouldn't know
I faded away in the things I gave
I lost my voice, I lost my way
I let myself go
Never noticed the cost
If loving you meant losing me
Then it was never meant to be
I mistook pain for proof of care
Stayed too long in a love unfair
I don't blame you, fool, you are
I blame myself for going that far
I let myself go but I'm finding her again
The girl I was before I met
I'll speak my truth, I'll take my space
I'll learn to love at my own pace
I let myself go
But I'm coming back stronger now
I didn't lose me forever
I know I just forgot
But now I won't
I let myself go
And now I'm coming home
And now I'm coming home