PTSD (Clean) - Dreamville/Omen/Mereba/Deante' Hitchcock/St. Beauty

Lyrics by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen

Composed by：Marian Mereba/Damon Coleman/Deante' Van Hitchcock/Alexe Belle/Isis Valentino/Cameron Osteen

Used to bend for me like the steel of a hatchback

曾经愿意为我折腰 就像用来制造掀背式轿车的钢铁

You was there for Q like a fourth grade class fact

你曾经就像四年级的孩子一样天真烂漫

Q was in for me never needed to ask that

兄弟一直陪着我 根本不用问

PTSD now I'm having a flashback

创伤后应激障碍 现在我脑子里不断回放过去的画面

Told me I'm sweet can't sleep in the trap trap

说我很温柔 无法入眠

Enemy envy make the strap go brrat brrat

敌人 妒忌 掏出了武器

You the missing piece no peace when I sleep now

你是我不可或缺的一部分 现在我睡觉都不安宁

Used to practice peace finna sleep with the piece now

曾经想要和睦相处 现在睡觉都要带着武器

Know I'ma miss you long as I'm alive

只要我还活着 我就会想念你

You said you need to call me be sure I tried

你说你将来要么发财 要么死在发财的路上

I wish I didn't have a song to write

我希望我不用写这些歌

I know you probably follow me with your light

我知道你可能在我身后 照亮我的路

My mama told me faith is all that I need

我妈妈告诉我 信念就是我需要的一切

And back in the day I would've agreed but now it's hard to believe

以前我还会同意 但现在我很难相信

I still do not 'cause I want 'cause I need to

虽然我很想相信 但我还是不敢相信

Believe in something greater than me without being able to see it

不能亲眼见证 我就不会相信有什么比我更伟大的东西

So f**k a watch I wear my heart on my sleeve

所以 去他的手表 我把我的真心捧在手上

Nobody knows my sorrow nobody knows about the trouble I seen

没人明白我的悲伤 没人明白我遇到多大的烦恼

A lot of dead n***as livin' through me shawty but not in the literal

很多死去的兄弟还活在我的心里 但他们的肉体已不复存在

Most 'em dead 'cause they ain't follow they dream

他们大部分人已经死去 因为他们没有坚持自己的梦想

The power of a higher entity entered me

一股更加强大的力量灌进了我的身体

Mentally physically spiritually

心理上 身体上 精神上

I'm on a whole different energy

我已经全然不同了

F**k the world but I need you to remember me

去他的世界 但我需要你记住我

I had doubt in myself 'cause I used to fear

我曾怀疑自己 因为我害怕

That you would look at me differently

你会用异样的眼光看待我

If I ever changed I'm numb to it now I don't feel the same

如果我改变了 现在我也已经麻木了 我已经不是从前的我

A slave to the feeling I'm breaking the chains

被感情奴役 我要挣脱束缚

Tryna balance out the joy the pain the sun the rain

想要在欢乐和痛苦之间 阳光和风雨之间找到一个平衡点

My life and the fame done lost the game

我的生活和我的声名 已经输了这场比赛

The gift the shame my skin my veins

天赋 耻辱 我的皮肤 我的血液

My soul done rained so much on my heart

我的灵魂让我的心无比沉重

Really I don't know where to start

我真的不知道该从何说起

The irony of finding self in the dark

在黑暗中寻找自我 多么讽刺

My n***a truthfully feel like it's two of me

兄弟 说真的 我感觉自己是两个人

I should've been on that ark

我应该登上诺亚方舟

A love-hate relationship with my thoughts

心里的想法让我又爱又恨

I'm tryna shine in my own light

我想沐浴在自己的光芒之中

The realest n***a left in my own right

最真实的那个人已经离我而去

Helping you with your vices

想要帮你解决问题

but can't seem to get a grip on my own life yeah

但我似乎连自己的生活都搞不定

I was on my way down breakdowns breakthroughs

我在走下坡路 不断失败 又不断突破自己

Spit up out my debut gotta say I stay true

完成了我的处女作 必须说我始终如一

Maybe why I stayed broke I been on a goose chase

也许 之所以我会一无所成 是因为我在追寻不存在的东西

Gotta swallow pride when they see me how the truth taste

必须放下自尊 现实的滋味如何

Off the beaten path like Blueface

像Blueface一样 不走寻常路

On the North Side had to be a Tuesday

当时在北边 那是一个星期二

Walkin' slow with your kids on a school day

在上课日和你的孩子慢慢地走

Way past midnight suddenly my mood change

凌晨时分 我的心情突然改变

That's when the truth came in New York hearing rumors

那时候我看清了现实 在纽约 听到各种谣言

My sister was homeless convinced her to often

我姐姐无家可归 说也说不听

Been years since we talked number changed

我们已经好久没有说话 电话号码也变了

Saw you and my heart broke in a couple ways

看见你 我的心碎成了好几瓣

I can't believe when I seen you I knew s**t was true

看到你时 我不敢相信 我知道那些事情是真的

Stared in your eyes and I saw a different you

凝视着你的眼睛 我看到了截然不同的你

Skated off fast 'fore I could address it

我还没有说出来 那个不同的你就迅速消失了

Hope I ran into you 'fore we both get to Heaven

希望在我俩进入天堂之前 我还能遇见你

We 'ight we 'ight

我们很好 我们很好

You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light

你让我睁开双眼 让我看见了希望

We 'ight we 'ight

我们很好 我们很好

You opened up my eyes and helped me see the light ayy

你让我睁开双眼 让我看见了希望

Yeah hahahaha

We just kickin' it you know ayy woah

我们在放松身心 你懂的

I'm here with all my friends

我和朋友们都在这里

This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

What

什么

And the h*es

还有女人

Hahahaha yeah

Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

我说 这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

And the h*es

还有女人

Can't forget about the h*es yeah

不能忘了女人

For the homies for the homies for the homies what

为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

What

什么

And the h*es

还有女人

Ayy that s**t sound tight

这首歌听起来不错

This is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

What

什么

And the h*es

还有女人

Hahahaha yeah

Said this is for the homies for the homies all the homies what

我说 这是为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

And the h*es

还有女人

Can't forget about the h*es yeah

不能忘了女人

For the homies for the homies for the homies what

为了兄弟们 所有的好兄弟

What

什么

And the h*es

还有女人