As a child never dared to hope for joy
Always finding flaws in what was loved
Deep desires were suppressed
Accustomed to silence hiding everything inside
Year after year shrinking small wishes
Living by others' measuring sticks
Low self-worth buried deep in youth
Timidity has taken root ever since
Years of study day and night
Earning a place of stable rest
Yet still hesitant when tenderness arrives
Always feeling something is wrong with me
Old shackles have never left
Still hesitating when faced with anything
Past suppression has become a mark
Pulling at me again and again
Do not blame your former self
So young didn't know how to guard your heart
The words around you were so narrow
Denying desire became routine
Do not hate the old experiences
Hardship has forged resilience
All the buried timidity within
Was simply never understood