All the Words I Swallowed - ArlenaZara
The pen is in my hand again
The paper's lying flat
A thousand things I want to say
Can't escape the trap
Of silence and the distance
The chasm deep and wide
I write the words and hide them
Where my broken heart can hide
The ink is a river of sorrow
Every sentence a deep sigh
A conversation with a ghost who never said goodbye
I seal them up with tears, stack them high upon the shelf
Cuz the only one who reads them is my lonely hollow self
And all the words I swallowed are a concrete in my chest
A heavy crushing weight that puts my soul to the final test
The"I love you"s and"I'm sorry"s and the painful sharply stay
They live within the silence
Hidden from the light of day
A library of honesty
A vault of bitter pain
All the words I swallowed are a never-ending rain
The first one was an angry one, all rage and bitter blame
A scorching burning fire with your name in every flame
The second one was begging, on my knees I plead with you
To come back and to fix it
To make it all brand new
The third was just a simple one,"I miss you" short and true
The hardest three words I can't speak
The hardest one to do
I can't let you see the weakness
Can't let you see the pain
So the words stay in the darkness
Safe from the cold hard rain
And all the words I swallowed are a concrete in my chest
A heavy crushing weight that puts my soul to the final test
The"I love you"s and"I'm sorry"s and the painful sharply stay
They live within the silence
Hidden from the light of day
A library of honesty
A vault of bitter pain
All the words I swallowed are a never-ending rain
If hope was a last chance, I would scream them all to you
And pray for a miracle, a world that's fresh and true
But my throat is closed now
The voice is lost at sea
You moved away from everything that was you and me
So I'll just keep on swallowing, keep the truth within the fold
The silent lonely keeper
Of every single fault
And all the words I swallowed are a concrete in my chest
A heavy crushing weight that puts my soul to the final test
The"I love you"s and"I'm sorry"s and the painful sharply stay
They live within the silence
Hidden from the light of day
A library of honesty
A vault of bitter pain
All the words I swallowed are a never-ending rain
Words I swallowed
Words I swallowed
The final and followed
Words I swallowed
Words I swallowed
The final and followed
All the words I swallowed