I Regret The Room - ArlenaZara
I moved my life around you
Like you were here to stay
Left room inside my mornings
For words you never say
I saved you a quiet corner
In every plan I made
I built my days with you in mind
You faded anyway
I thought love meant preparing
For someone to arrive
I made space for you
In my heart, in my bed
In the silence before sleep
And the thoughts in my head
I left doors open wide
Hoping you'd come through
I made space for you
But you never moved in
I stopped saying no to others
So you'd always fit
I learned how to wait without asking
For a sign, for a hint
You came and went so freely
Like you belonged somewhere else
I kept shrinking my needs
Until there was nothing left
I mistook your absence for patience
I made space for you
In my heart, in my bed
In the silence before sleep
And the thoughts in my head
I left doors open wide
Hoping you'd come through
I made space for you
But you never moved in
If I had filled that space
With truth instead of maybe someday
I might have saved myself
From loving you this way
I don't regret the loving
I regret the room
I kept empty for someone
Who never chose it
I made space for you
But now I'm closing the door
I won't leave half open waiting anymore
I'll fill my life with people who show up, who stay
I made space for you
Some love doesn't leave
It just never fully arrives
Some love doesn't leave
It just never fully arrives