I used to close the curtains before dawn arrived
Kept my hands in pockets, kept my eyes on the floor
There was something heavy I was holding inside
A weight I couldn't name but knew I'd carried before
Now the morning breaks different than it did
Something's changing in the way I breathe
I'm learning how to carry what was given to me
Hold it steady, hold it close, hold it faithfully
There's a flame I'm tending that I didn't believe
I'm learning how to carry, learning how to be
(How to carry, how to carry)
(Learning how to be)
I found a box of photographs I'd hidden away
Faces looking back at me with grace I didn't earn
Started opening the windows, letting in the day
Discovered that the warmth I feared wouldn't make me burn
Now the evening settles softer than it did
Something's growing in the space I've freed
I'm learning how to carry what was given to me
Hold it steady, hold it close, hold it faithfully
There's a flame I'm tending that I didn't believe
I'm learning how to carry, learning how to be
(How to carry, how to carry)
(Learning how to be)
And if you're standing in the place where I once stood
Afraid that opening will only bring the pain
I'll tell you what nobody told me when they could—
That sometimes salvation feels like rain
Now I'm walking through the streets with open palms
Sharing what was shared with me when I had nothing left
The weight I carried turned into a healing balm
And I'm becoming someone I can recognize at last
I'm learning how to carry what was given to me
Hold it steady, hold it close, hold it faithfully
There's a flame I'm tending and I finally believe
I'm learning how to carry, learning how to be
We're learning how to carry, learning how to be
(How to carry, how to carry)
(Learning how to be)