Look, to you I’m different

听着对你而言我与众不同

It’s cause I refuse to listen

因我拒绝倾听

To all the stupid s**t that you include in your opinions

你那些观点中的愚行与无稽之谈

I got enough issues trying to be a human living

我的问题已经够多了想要好好生活

In a ruined system while I’m running from a crucifixion

困于破败体系，我竭力逃脱这痛苦的折磨

You’ll never get it

你永远也不会明白

I put myself in this position

我让自己陷入这样的境地

And nothing you could do could ever worsen my condition

而你所做的一切都无法让我的处境更糟

So while you try to play the villain

所以当你试图扮演坏蛋角色时

Understand that I’m the monster in my blood

明白我血脉中潜藏的怪兽

Looking for a way to spill it

寻找释放的出口

I can’t wait till you see what I make

我迫不及待想看你看到我制造的破坏

When I paint the walls red with a gun to my brain

当我用枪顶住大脑，把墙壁染成红色时

And I can’t wait to see the look on your face

我迫不及待想看看你脸上的表情

When I lay in my own grave I was never afraid to die

当我陷入绝境，我从未畏惧死亡

Nah I’m playing

不，我开玩笑的

I’d never follow through and I’m never gon’ do what you want me to

我绝不妥协，也绝不顺你心意

I’m staying

我要留下

My mind’s racing, you think it’s cause of you

我思绪万千你以为都是因为你

But my thoughts are like a room

但我的思绪杂乱无章

You ain’t even in my basement

你在我生命中无足轻重

Not a day passes I don’t ask myself who am I

我没有一天不问自己我是谁

And I have a habit of imagining my suicide

我总幻想着自我了断

The thoughts I’m having got me battling my stupid mind

思绪让我与内心挣扎

Why does every situation have to be a do or die

为何每场境遇都需孤注一掷

Have to be a foolish lie

定是荒谬的谎言

Something that I used to tell myself that always seems to make me lose my cool inside

那些曾自欺欺人、却总令我内心崩溃的话

Makes me think I’m cool with dying

让我觉得我对死亡无所畏惧

But really all I wanna do is spit the truth and watch my dreams and points of view align

但真正想做的，只是吐露真相，目睹梦想与观点的契合

I think there’s something wrong inside my head

我觉得我头脑里有些不对劲

I’m getting anxious

我越来越焦虑

I’ve lost all hope I had of staying calm

我彻底放弃了保持冷静的希望

I cannot stand this

我无法忍受

So bite your tongue and walk away because I need a minute

所以请闭嘴离开，给我一点时间

I feel the blood run through my veins and there’s a monster in it

我感到血液在血管中奔涌，内心有一只愤怒的怪兽

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想见我那怪兽般的一面

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster in my blood

你不想见我骨子里的魔

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster I become

你不想看到我变成的恶魔

My mind’s a prison

我的内心是一座囚牢

Confinement living

受困的生活

The lights are dimmed and no one tries to visit

灯光昏暗没有人试图探访

Time is ticking

时间在流逝

To find the missing

寻找那遗失的

Keys to the cell I’m in or die within it

找到逃离的钥匙，否则困死其中

I wish I had a minute I would make amends

但愿我有片刻时光去弥补

With the demons that are moving in my vacant head

与占据我空虚头脑的恶魔和解

Maybe I’d convince ‘em we’d be great as friends

或许能说服他们，友情会更为愉快

Maybe then they would listen, it’s you we hate instead

或许他们会听进去，我们憎恨的其实是你们

I could take my meds or I could pray it ends

我可以吃药也可以祈祷一切就此结束

Or make a deal with the devil, maybe pay him rent

或与恶魔交易，甚至付给他租金

My only other choice is fill my brain with lead

我唯一的选择便是自我了断

Or keep on living with the voices till the day I’m dead

或继续忍受幻听与杂念，直至我死去那天

Now you know that I’m the only person that can dig my grave

现在你知道，我是唯一能毁掉自己的人

But didn’t pay attention cause I went and did it yesterday

却因冲动昨日行事未曾留意

It’s got me thinking that there’s gotta be a better way

这让我思考，定有良策可寻

I’ll start by laying you to sleep and tuck you in the bed I made

我将从承担我所做一切后果的责任开始

You’ll never get the best of me

你永远无法战胜我

I’ll bury you with all my skeletons that always had a negative effect on me

将你与我所有的秘密一同埋葬

You won’t ever get away

你永远无法逃脱

I never hesitate

我从不犹豫

I’ll close the lid and fill the hole then throw a rose and celebrate

我会盖上盖子填补内心的空虚然后扔一支玫瑰来庆祝

I think there’s something wrong inside my head

我觉得我脑子有问题

I’m getting anxious

我越来越焦虑

I’ve lost all hope I had of staying calm

我完全失去了保持冷静的希望

I cannot stand this

我无法忍受

So bite your tongue and walk away because I need a minute

所以请闭嘴离开，因为我需要片刻的宁静

I feel the blood run through my veins and there’s a monster in it

我感到血液在血管中奔涌，里面藏着愤怒的怪兽

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想见到的怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster in my blood

你不想见我骨子里的魔

You don’t wanna see the monster

你不想看见怪物

You don’t wanna see the monster I become

你不该看到我变成的怪物