Love Felt Like Dying - Aliza
I didn't fall
I faded
I held my breath every time you left
Pretended it didn't steal what I had
I smiled through the heaviness
Called it love, called it doubt
But every moment with you took something I had loved
I kept saying I was fine
While disappearing inside
Love felt like dying
Slow and quiet
No dramatic end
Just silence
I gave my heart
Until it was empty
Love felt like dying
And you didn't see me
I stayed on my voice when we
When my knees felt too hard to speak
I shrank myself to make you stay
Lost pieces of me every day
I thought pain meant devotion
I thought suffering was proof
But love shouldn't leave you without it
Love felt like dying
Night by night I was fading
Right before your eyes
I didn't leave, I just disappeared
Love felt like dying
When you were near
Maybe love should feel like fire
Not a constant fear of the dark
Maybe it should let you burn
Not break you down so slow
Confused, painless, empty
I won't call suffering love again
Love felt like dying
But as I break, I find self on the other side
I answer the love that keeps me alive
Love felt like dying
This time I run
I didn't fall
I faded
But I'm still here