(Soft piano, distant ambient tone)
I hover over your name,
My finger shaking in the same place.
I read our texts like they still breathe,
Every word pulling back at me.
I say I’m strong, I say I’m fine,
But your ghost still crosses my mind.
So I cancel the call I wanna make,
Delete the words I almost say.
I cancel the hope, the what-if plans,
But my heart didn’t get the command.
I cancel you everywhere I can,
But I still feel you in who I am.
Your pictures sleep inside my phone,
Proof I wasn’t always alone.
I tell myself it’s for the best,
But healing hurts more than I guessed.
So I cancel the call I wanna make,
Delete the words I almost say.
I cancel the hope, the what-if plans,
But my heart didn’t get the command.
I cancel you everywhere I can,
But I still feel you in who I am.
Blocking your name won’t block the pain,
Silence still screams when it rains.
I cut the line, I shut the door,
But love doesn’t listen anymore.
I cancel the past, I cancel the nights,
I cancel pretending I’m alright.
I cancel your voice in my head,
But it replays everything we said.
I cancel you, but truth remains,
Some things deleted still stay.
(Piano fades, pads slowly dissolve)
I canceled you… but not the ache,
Not the love I couldn’t break.