Used to spend my paycheck
On weekend shoes and wine
Called in sick on Mondays
Sunburnt feeling fine
Laughing in small apartments
Floor covered in clothes
Planning out the next night
Never thinking long-term only go
Now I carry what I chose
All these bags under my eyes and on my shoulders
Every bill every promise
Every I'll be there I wrote
I was light as air at twenty
Didn't see the seeds I'd sown
Now I walk a little slower
But I walk like this is home
Calendar full of colors
Deadlines dinner calls
Talking to my mother
From grocery store aisles
Crying in parked-up cars
So the neighbors never know
Wiping tears with receipts
Then I breathe and I go
Cause I carry what I chose
All these bags under my eyes and on my shoulders
Every bill every promise
Every I'll be there I wrote
I was light as air at twenty
Didn't see the seeds I'd sown
Now I walk a little slower
But I walk like this is home
I miss that careless girl sometimes
Skinny wallet open sky
But she's the one who led me here
Taught me how to stay not hide
So I'll hold her in my heart
While I sign while I drive
Young and wild grown and tired
Both of us alive
So I carry what I chose
All these bags under my eyes and on my shoulders
Every bill every promise
Every I'll be there I wrote
I was light as air at twenty
Now I'm sturdy in these bones
I still laugh a little softer
But I laugh inside my home