I Stayed Quiet, You Left Loud - ArlenaZara
I swallowed words to keep the peace
Bit my tongue till it bled
I chose silence over fighting
Just to stay in your head
I fixed the cracks you never saw
Smiled through every doubt
I broke myself in half for you
While you were finding a way out
I learned how to hurt politely
So you wouldn't feel the pain
I was falling apart in whispers
While you screamed your escape
I stay quiet
You left loud
You slammed the door on everything
I tried to work out
I loved you in soft pieces
You left with no doubt
I stay quiet
You left loud
I carried all the blame alone
So you could walk away clean
I defended you when I was bleeding
Called it being understanding
I waited for you to choose me
While you chose being free
I stayed loyal to your distance
You never stayed loyal to me
I kept my tears behind closed doors
So you could sleep at night
I learned how to disappear
Just to keep you inside
I stay quiet
You left loud
You turned my love into background noise
And didn't look back
I was gentle with your heart
You were cruel with mine
I stay quiet
You left loud
Maybe love shouldn't require silence
Maybe pain shouldn't be this calm
If I had screamed how much it hurt
Would you have stayed a little longer
I won't regret my tenderness
Even if it broke me down
But next time I'll speak my truth
Before I let love drown
I stay quiet
But I see now
I shouldn't ask you to disappear
Just to stick around
I loved you carefully, loved me proud
I stay quiet
You left loud
I stay quiet
Now I finally speak