Lying To Myself - ArlenaZara
I told myself you'd change one day
I told myself the things he'd say
Were just a way of dealing with stress
I told myself I should just settle for less
I told myself that love is hard
That I shouldn't guard my heart so hard
I told myself a thousand lies
Right in front of my own eyes
I told myself you'd call me back
I told myself the other girl was just a fling, a lack
Of judgment, a mistake he'd regret
I told myself not to be upset
When he forgot my birthday, our plans
I told myself to use my hands
To hold us together, to keep us tight
While he was with her every night
I was lying to myself
Lying to myself
Putting my heart up on a shelf
Waiting for him to come around
When he was already six feet underground
In terms of love
In terms of love
I was lying to myself
And push came to shove
And I fell and I groveled
And the only person I could blame
Was the one I spoke to in the mirror every day
Lying to myself
I told myself I was okay
I told myself I'd find a way
To be happy with the crumbs he gave
I told myself I was brave
But brave is not accepting less
Brave is not making a mess
Of your own heart to please someone
Who's already gone and done
I was lying to myself
No more putting my heart on a shelf
He showed me who he was
And I finally see because
I stopped lying
I stopped lying
The truth hurts
But not as much as the lie
Not as much as the lie
No more lying to myself