I Was Easy To Hold - ArlenaZara
I never raised my voice, never asked you to stay
I made loving me simple so you wouldn't walk away
I carried all the questions you avoided answering
I told myself being easy was the same as being seen
I thought if I asked for nothing, you'd give me more
But I was easy to leave, too gentle to fight for
I made myself small so you wouldn't feel bored
I loved you without conditions, you loved me when it was convenient
I was easy to hold
But easy to leave
I stayed calm in the heartbreaks, smiled through the ache
I blamed myself for wanting more than you could give
I watched you pull away and I didn't chase
I told myself it was strength, but it just felt safe
I confused being understanding
With being disposable
I was easy to leave, too gentle to fight for
I made myself small so you wouldn't feel bored
I loved you without conditions, you loved me when it was convenient
I was easy to hold
But easy to leave
If I had slammed the door, would you have turned around?
If I had cried louder, would you have heard the sound?
I don't regret the loving, I regret the way I taught you how to walk away
I was easy to leave, but I'm not hard to love
I just gave my heart to someone unsure
Next time I'll be honest, I won't fade to be free
I was easy to leave
But that won't be me
Some people leave easily
Because we never asked them to stay