It’s 2 a.m
My phone on the sink
Water in the basin
Climbing the brink
Your name in the mirror
Fogged in a breath
I trace it with fingers
Then wipe you to death
I keep going back to the deep
Where I lost you
Where I lost me
Sink to the floor where the light can’t reach
Still I’m reaching
Still I’m reaching
If I disappear in the deep
Would you come look
Would you dive in for me
I’m talking to waves like they know what I mean
In the deep
In the deep
Your hoodie on the chair
Sleeve still rolled
Smells like last winter
Coffee gone cold
I wear it like armor
I wear it like shame
I’m warm for a moment
Then drown in your name
I keep going back to the deep
Where I lost you
Where I lost me
Sink to the floor where the light can’t reach
Still I’m reaching
Still I’m reaching
If I disappear in the deep
Would you come look
Would you dive in for me
I’m talking to waves like they know what I mean
In the deep
In the deep
Maybe I don’t want saving
Maybe I just want proof
That somebody’s waiting
At the edge of this blue
So I count down softly
Three
Two
Breathe
Let the dark come take me
Till you pull on my sleeve
I keep going back to the deep
Where I lost you
Where I found me
Float to the place where your hands might reach
Still I’m reaching
Still I’m reaching
If I disappear in the deep
Write your promise
Across this sea
Say my name loud till the tide retreats
From the deep
From the deep