I Was Right Here - ArlenaZara
I spoke in careful sentences
so I wouldn't scare you away
I folded every feeling
into words I never said
I learned how to be present
without taking up space
I stood right in front of you
still you looked past my face
I was right here
but you never felt me
I was unheard, unheld
standing in your arms alone
loving you out loud inside
but silent on the phone
I gave you all I had to give
you barely felt the weight
I was unheard, unheld
and I stayed
too late
I waited for your questions
like they might save us both
but you never asked my heart
what it needed most
I kept choosing understanding
over being seen
I made peace with crumbs of love
and called it everything
I kept believing closeness
would come
I was unheard, unheld
standing in your arms alone
loving you out loud inside
but silent on the phone
I gave you all I had to give
you barely felt the weight
I was unheard, unheld
and I stayed
If I had asked for more
would you have stayed or run?
If I showed you my breaking
would you have held me then?
I don't blame you for not knowing
what I never told
but it still hurts loving someone
who never reached for your soul
I was unheard, unheld
but I hear myself now
I won't beg to be felt
I won't shrink or bow
I deserve a love that listens
that meets me halfway
I was unheard, unheld
but I won't stay
Some hearts don't shatter
they fade from being unseen