Heart layers pile up locking the old door
A casual word feels like an attack
Afraid to see the dust in my eyes
Instinct builds a wall to shut out all
Clinging to my own truth never backing down
Kind reminders twisted into blame
Terrified to tear the long-worn mask
Frantic defense to guard the old wounds
Half a life of silence hiding pain within
No one sees the panic beneath the strong shell
Using a cold crust to block out every light
Not knowing inside has long gone dark
Not born bitter or fond of argument
Just that peace depends on stubborn beliefs
Once the usual order starts to shake
I instinctively strike at all approaching warmth
The high wall stands too long muffling all sounds
Trapping the understanding I secretly crave
Refusing to accept objective truth
Locked in a tiny prison of my own making
Try to loosen your clenched fingers now
Leave a thin crack in that closed door
Let a sliver of light fall into your deep heart
Learn to embrace the imperfect you