Loving the Pain - ArlenaZara
I still feel your shadow on my skin
Where your fingers traced where it begins
Every word you whispered every glance you gave
Left a scar I tried to save
I held my heart in fragile hands
Thought love would heal what you began
But every touch that should have stayed
Left pieces of me in your wake
I smiled like I was whole
But inside
I was cracking slow
I broke where you touched me silently
Shattered in places you'll never see
I gave you everything my fragile core
But you left me broken on the floor
I carried your love like a wound that bled
Every memory every word unsaid
I broke where you touched me and I stayed
Loving the pain
That won't go away
I memorized the way you held me close
And how it burned the most
I begged myself to feel the calm
While your warmth was a silent harm
I kissed the nights when you were gone
Pretended your absence wasn't wrong
I learned to live in shadows and day
Every touch another heartbreak
I thought I could survive
Every touch that came alive
I broke where you touched me silently
Shattered in places you'll never see
I gave you everything my fragile core
But you left me broken on the floor
I carried your love like a wound that bled
Every memory every word unsaid
I broke where you touched me and I stayed
Loving the pain
That won't go away
I shouldn't leave you hollow
Or teach you how to follow
I confused tenderness with chains
And warmth for your secret pains
I gave you me
I gave you fire
You left me drowning in desire
Now I'm learning to reclaim
Every piece of me you knew
Every touch that should have healed
Became a story never sealed
I loved you deep I loved you true
But your love broke me through
I broke where you touched me silently
Shattered in places you'll never see
I loved you soft I loved you wrong
Held on to you way too long
I carried your love like a wound that bled
Every memory every word unsaid
I broke where you touched me but now I rise
Picking up the pieces of my life
I broke where you touched me
But I'm finding strength
In the ache