Oh-oh oh-oh
I know I know
Oh-oh oh-oh
I learned to read the room before I said a word
Changed the shape of every truth so nobody got hurt
I could tell you what you wanted
I could make it sound sincere
But somewhere in that perfect answer
I disappeared
Now I don't wanna win you
By becoming someone else
If you only love the version
That I edited myself—
I don't wanna be easy to love
If easy means I'm giving you up
I can bend I can break I can meet you halfway
But I won't erase what I came to say
If you need me need me as I am
Not the girl who always understands—
I don't wanna be easy to love
I just wanna be real enough
Real enough enough enough
Oh-oh real enough
I used to call it kindness when I swallowed my reply
Call it keeping peace when I was keeping myself quiet
Then I heard my own voice shaking
And I finally understood:
Being loved for never leaving
Isn't the same as being loved for good
So don't promise me forever
Just to keep me standing still
I'd rather hear an honest no
Than a yes you never feel
I don't wanna be easy to love
If easy means I'm giving you up
I can bend I can break I can meet you halfway
But I won't erase what I came to say
If you need me need me as I am
Not the girl who always understands—
I don't wanna be easy to love
I just wanna be real enough
Maybe love is not the moment
When two people never fight
Maybe it's the conversation
Where we both stay in the light
You can disagree with me
You can see me differently—
Just don't ask me to become
Someone you can love more easily
I don't wanna be easy to love
If easy means I'm giving you up
I can bend I can break I can meet you halfway
And still keep something true inside my name
If you need me need me as I am
With the doubt the fire the stubborn hands—
I don't wanna be easy to love
I wanna be real enough
Real enough enough enough
Not easy—just real enough
Oh-oh real enough