My Tears Fell First - ArlenaZara
I felt the goodbye before you said a word
In the way you stopped reaching for my hand
Your silence spoke louder than your voice
Like you already had another plan
I kept pretending I was strong enough
Smiling through the cracks in my soul
But every night alone in the dark
I felt myself losing control
You were already halfway gone
While I was still holding on
My tears fell first
Before you walked away
Before you said you didn't love me
In the same old way
My heart knew the ending
Before you closed the door
You left with dry eyes
But my tears fell first
I loved you quietly, carefully
Like love was something I could save
I gave you the softest parts of me
And called it brave
I stayed when it hurt to breathe
I waited when you never came
I made excuses for your distance
While you forgot my name
You let go without a fight
I cried myself to sleep every night
My tears fell first
When you chose to leave
When your arms felt empty
And your words felt incomplete
I begged my heart to let you go
But it loved you more
You left without breaking
But my tears fell first
Maybe I loved you deeper
Than you were ever able to stay
Maybe my heart was honest
In a world that runs away
I don't regret loving you
I regret losing myself
Trying to be enough
For someone else
My tears fell first
But they won't fall forever
I'm learning how to heal
Every broken letter
You may forget my love
Like it never meant a thing
But my tears fell first
Because my heart felt everything
I cried before you left
Because my heart already knew
My tears fell first
For you