Still Crying Quietly - Aliza
You left your toothbrush by the sink
Half a joke like I might stay
Now it stares at me each morning
Proof you walked, proof I didn't say
I scrub the counter just to cope
Talk to walls instead of you
Tiny ghost in every corner
Doing laps around this room
I'm still crying quietly
Facing the pillow
Begging it not to scream
I'm still holding half of me
In hands that shake whenever I try to sleep
I don't make a sound but it's breaking me loud inside of me
I'm still crying quietly over you
Over you
Found your charger in the drawer
Coiled all black like we once were
I replay that last small argument
Every pause, each heavy word
Friends keep asking"Are you fine?"
I just shrug and change the plans
Say I'm busy, say I'm tired
Hide the trembling in my hands
I'm still crying quietly
Facing the pillow
Begging it not to scream
I'm still holding half of me
In hands that shake whenever I try to sleep
I don't make a sound but it's breaking me loud inside of me
I'm still crying quietly over you
Over you
You won't hear the way I break
All this hurt behind the door
Silent sighs that never shake
I see with the water for
Would you ever think of me?
And someone else's arms at two
Know the calm you think I've found
Is just me whispering your name
Till my throat turns blue
I'm still crying quietly
Facing the pillow
Begging it not to scream
I'm still holding half of me
In hands that shake whenever I try to sleep
I don't make a sound but it's breaking me loud inside of me
I'm still crying quietly over you
Over you
Tell a picture to the wall
So I don't have to see your eyes
Then I call it back again
Can't erase our last goodbye
So I breathe in carefully
Let the tears fall secretly
Somewhere you can't ever see
I'm still crying quietly