Your Name Still Here - ArlenaZara
I hear your name in conversations like a ghost I never asked to see
Every letter feels like a confession of the love you took from me
I learned to breathe without your shadow, learned to smile, learned to cope
But some wounds don't close with time, they just learn how to hide the hope
I don't call, I don't reach out, I don't beg for what we were
But every time your name is spoken, I remember how it hurts
And your name still hurts
Like the night you walked away
Like every promise you left undone
That still echoes in my veins
I've moved on, at least it looks that way
But the truth is worse
I'm stronger now, but even now your name still hurts
I packed away the memories, said I'd never look back again
But love has a way of finding cracks in the walls I tried to mend
I see your smile in strangers' faces, hear your laugh in crowded rooms
I don't miss who you are today, I miss who you were with me and you
I forgave you in my silence, learned to live with the pain
But forgiveness doesn't mean I don't feel it every day
Your name still hurts
Like a scar that never fades
Like a song I can't escape
That still knows my heart by name
I've let go of what we used to be, but the echo lingers first
I'm healing slow, but I still know
Your name still hurts
Maybe one day it won't sting
Maybe I'll say it and feel okay
But right now it's just a reminder of the love I gave away
I loved you deeper than you knew
Deeper than you stayed
And that's the part that breaks me every time your name is said
Your name still hurts
But it doesn't own my soul
I survived the way you left, I'm learning how to let go
I'll love again, I'll feel delight, I'll rise above the worst
But until then I'll admit the truth, your name still hurts
I don't say it out loud anymore
But my heart still does