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点击复制Eminem Speaks (Explicit) - Juice WRLD
Lyrics by：Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
Composed by：Jarad Higgins/Marshall Mathers
Eminem：
I think once I took my first Vicodin
在我第一次服用维柯丁（止痛药）时候
It was just like
那感觉就像是
This feeling of"Ahh"
暂时得以解脱的感觉
You know
你知道的
Like everything was not only mellow
仿佛周遭的一切变得顺眼起来
But didn't feel any pain
而我再也感觉不到一点痛苦
It just didn't
一点也感觉也没有
It just kind of numbed things
这让我变得有些麻木了
I don't know at what point exactly it started to be a problem
我不知道问题从什么时候开始出现的
I just remember likin' it more and more
我只记得我越来越依赖它（维柯丁）
People try to tell me that I had a problem
人们总是说我有问题
I would say
我想说
"Get that f**kin' person out of here
"叫那个说我有病的人滚远点
I can't believe they said that s**t to me
我不敢相信他们竟然那样说我
They know nothin' about my f**kin' life
他们根本对我的生活一无所知
Are they out of their f**kin' mind"
就对我指手画脚评头论足 他们是不是有病？"
I'm not out there shootin' h****n
我并不是要谴责什么
I'm not out there f**kin'
也不是要唾骂什么
You know
你知道
Puttin' coke up my nose
把东西塞入鼻子里
I'm not smokin' crack
并不意味着我一定是在**
You're struggling with the argument of"Do you have a problem
你们不厌其烦的争论着
Or do you not have a problem
我究竟有没有病
Can you control it
还有我能不能
Or can you not"
控制好自己
And I literally thought I could control it
我真心觉得我能控制好自己 无论是身体还是情绪
You're taking things that people are giving you that
而别人的信口开河 你却全盘接收信以为真
You don't even know what the f**k they are
你根本都不清楚那些话是真是假 有何杀伤力
They look like a pill
它们像是药丸
And they look they're shaped like something that you take
像是你接受的全部
So you take it
而你只是照单全收
You know
你知道的
Xanax
赞安诺（治疗压力和焦虑的药）
Valium
安定 (药名)
Tomato-tomato
**（致幻药）
You know what I mean
你们懂我的意思吧
It's th-the same thing
它们其实都一样
It's all in the same family
都来源于同个家族
F**k it
Take it
接受吧
Had I had gotten to the hospital about two hours later
我是不是两个小时后才能到医院
I would've died
那时我就死透了吧
My organs were shutting down
我身体各个器官都渐渐衰竭
My liver kidneys everything
我的肝 我的肾 我身体的各个器官
They were gonna have to put me on dialysis
他们要给我做透析
They didn't think I was gonna make it
他们觉得我活不了
My bottom was gonna be death
我已经撑到极限
Within a month
一个月内
I had relapsed
病情再次复发
And shot right back up to the same amount of pills that I was taking
然后我的药量又恢复到从前
I remember just walking around my house and thinking every single day
我记得我在家里来回徘徊 每一天都在思考
Like"I'm gonna f**king die"
“我真的要死了”
Like I'm I'm looking at my kids
我看着我的孩子们
And I need to be here for this
我必须好好的活着
Coming off of everything
摆脱那痛苦的一切
I literally was up twenty-four hours a day for three weeks straight
整整三个星期 我每天24小时都躺在床上
And I mean not sleeping
我意思是我无法入眠
Not even nodding off for a f**king minute
连片刻打盹都没有
Like I was literally just up
就像是我刚起床
Like looking at the TV
就像是我看着电视
I had to regain motor skills
我必须让身体重新活动起来
I had to regain talking skills
我得重新学会说话
It's been a-a learning process
这是一个漫长的学习过程
Like It's been I'm growing
而我一直在进步成长
I just couldn't believe that anybody could ever be naturally happy
我无法相信有人会天生快乐
Or naturally function
哪怕只是天生如此
Or be just enjoying life in general
亦或是享受生活
Without being on something
不用吃药
So I would say that t-to anybody that i-it does get better
所以我想对所有人说 我确实在变好
You know
你知道的
It just it does
就是这样