Loving You Felt Like Dying - ArlenaZara
I gave you all my oxygen
Still couldn't breathe at night
I called your distance temporary
While I was losing light
I stayed awake to keep you close
You slept through all my pain
I loved you past my breaking point
And learned how love can ache
I told myself this hurting meant that we were still alive
But love should never make you feel like you're just trying to survive
Loving you felt like dying
Slowly every day
I bled in quiet moments
You looked the other way
I was fighting for a heartbeat
You were already gone
Loving you felt like dying
But I held on
I shrank myself to fit your world
Till I disappeared
I learned how not to need too much
Just to keep you near
I called your silence being strong
Your absence needing space
But love doesn't ask a fragile heart to accept that kind of pain
I was drowning in your arms still begging you to stay
I was breaking in slow motion while you turned away
Loving you felt like dying with no one hearing my cries
I gave you every breath I had you never asked me why
I held on to the memory of who you used to be
Loving you felt like dying
But you felt free
Maybe love scares you maybe I loved too deep
But love shouldn't feel like losing it every time you leave
I won't regret the way I loved even though it cost my soul
But next time love won't ask me to bleed just to feel whole
Loving you felt like dying
But now I'm learning how
To breathe again without your hands around my heart right now
I'll mourn what we almost were then finally move on
Loving you felt like dying now I choose to live
I almost disappeared
Loving you
But I survived
But I survived