Diary Of A Madman (Explicit) - Scarface
Yo anybody seen my diary Oh there it is
I gotta write this sh*t down Check it out
Dear Diary I'm having a little problem
I can't make it by myself
Maybe you can help me solve
I'm confused and I don't know what to do
I'm hoping you can help me
Cause there's no one else to talk to
I want to die but it ain't for me
I try to talk to my dad
But my old man ignores me
He says I'm delirious
And I drink too much so he doesn't take me serious
But little does he know I'm really losing it
I got a head but ain't no screws in it
I be thinking deep
That's one of the reasons at night I can't sleep
I thought it would change when I was older
But even now I'm still peeping over my shoulder
Theres your life after death too
And what about the man with the cane and the black suit
And what about cancer
Too many motherf**king questions and not enough answers
Ain't no use in trying
We might as all face it we were all born dying
Theres a black book in Brad's hands
And it's the diary of a madman
Dear diary today I hit a ni**a with a torch
Shot him on his face and watched him die
On his front porch
Left his family heartbroken
Flashbacks of him laying there bleeding with his eyes open
I can't put the sh*t behind me
I'm know I'm here somewhere but I can't find me
I used to be a ** dealer
On the for reala now I'm a born killer
And it ain't no changing me
It used to be hard
But now it ain't no thing to me
To go up to a niggas house
Put a pistol in his mouth and blow his f**king brains out
No doubt if you cross then I'ma take ya
Cause I'm a f**king killer by nature
You got an M11 bring your weapon
Huh I got an AK-47
It's gonna be a bloody Sunday
Cause your f**king with a ni**a like Bundy
And I was taught not to kill
Like a Vietnam vet with a thousand yard stare
So welcome to the slaughterhouse ni**a
Redrum and I'ma be the grave digger
And if you want to cap come cap me
I'm trigger happy like my greatgrandpappy
Just watch for the chrome in my right hand
My second entry from the diary of a madman
Dear diary help me cause I'm frantic
Sometimes I think I'm going schizophrantic
The world's looking dark for instance
Maybe cause I'm looking from a distance
But then again I wear a blindfold
Staring at the mother f**king world with my eyes closed
To myself I'm a stranger
Walking in the foot steps of danger
It's a long path ahead of me
I gotta get somewhere cause everybody here is scared of me
I had a job but they fired me
My wife walked out now I'm living in my diary