I Learned That from You - ArlenaZara
I learned silence lying next to you
How to smile when something wasn't true
You were close but worlds away
I felt alone even when you stayed
I memorized the sound of your breath
Like it meant you hadn't left
But your heart was somewhere new
And I learned loneliness from you
I gave my nights, I gave my days
I bent myself in fragile ways
I waited while you drifted through
And called it love, but it wasn't true
I learned loneliness from you
From loving someone halfway through
From holding hands that wouldn't hold
From promises that turned cold
I loved you loud, you loved me small
I stayed until I lost it all
I learned loneliness from you
Even before you said goodbye
As spoken whispers, you stayed quiet
I felt the distance but denied it
I blamed my heart, I blamed the time
When losing you wasn't even mine
I watched you fade in front of me
Pretended not to see
I held on longer than I should
Hoping someday you would
I gave my nights, I gave my days
I bent myself in fragile ways
I waited while you drifted through
And called it love, but it wasn't true
I learned loneliness from you
From loving someone halfway through
From holding hands that wouldn't hold
From promises that turned cold
I loved you loud, you loved me small
I stayed until I lost it all
I learned loneliness from you
Even before you said goodbye
Maybe love isn't meant to wake
Maybe hearts aren't meant to break
But mine broke slow, piece by piece
Learning how to feel your absence before you'd leave
I learned loneliness from you
From the space you never filled
From all the things you didn't say
From choosing not to stay
I don't hate you, I just grew
Into someone who finally knew
I learned loneliness from you
But I won't live there anymore
You taught me how to be alone
Now I'll teach my heart to heal