I woke up with my jaw locked tight
Thought I heard your name in the hall
Hands on the edge of the sink
Trying not to fall
My shadow moved before I did
Like it knew the pain
I said"I'm fine I'm fine"
But my throat said your name
And I hate that I shake
When the room goes still
I hate how it waits
Right under my skin
If I let it in
It gets too real
So I hold my breath
And I try to stand still
I'm scared scared scared
But I stay right here
(I'm scared scared scared)
When the dark gets near
Don't turn away
Don't let go of me
I'm scared scared scared
But I still breathe
I keep a smile like a bandage on
Over every crack
I laugh too loud in crowded rooms
To keep the flood back
My heartbeat knocks on the inside door
Like it wants out fast
I know the shape of running away
I know it won't last
And I hate that I shake
When the room goes still
I hate how it waits
Right under my skin
If I let it in
It gets too real
So I hold my breath
And I try to stand still
I'm scared scared scared
But I stay right here
(I'm scared scared scared)
When the dark gets near
Don't turn away
Don't let go of me
I'm scared scared scared
But I still breathe
If I say it out loud
Maybe it breaks
Maybe the pressure
Can learn my name
I don't need a cure
I need a hand
I need one small light
I can understand
I'm scared scared scared
But I stay right here
(I'm scared scared scared)
When the dark gets near
Don't turn away
Don't let go of me
I'm scared scared scared
But I still breathe
I'm scared scared scared
And I'm still here