If I Never Find You - Soul Blues Icon
I've been walking through this world halfway
Looking for a face I've only seen when I'm dreaming
Everybody says soulmates are just stories that we make
But I swear I feel you out there somewhere breathing
I date these people trying to make it fit
But I'm measuring them all against someone I ain't even met
There's this ache inside my chest I can't explain
Like I'm homesick for a place I've never been
Like I'm mourning someone I've never held or claimed
Like I lost you before this life could even begin
And I know that sounds insane, I know it don't make sense
But I feel you like a memory from the future tense
If I never find you
Will I survive
Or will I spend forever chasing shadows in my mind
If I never find you
Can I be complete
Or are you the answer to this longing inside of me
What if you're real and we just miss our chance
What if we're in the same room and we never glance
What if I never find you at all
What if you never find me
My mama says I'm living in a fantasy
That I've created perfect in my head
But how do I explain this certainty
This feeling that you're out there lying in your bed
Staring at your ceiling just like me
Wondering if I'm wondering about you
Wondering about me
Maybe you're across an ocean I'll never cross
Maybe you're in a city I'll never see
Maybe we're separated by some cruel cosmic cost
Or maybe you're closer than I think, babe
Tomorrow I'll turn a corner and there you'll be
And every lonely night will finally make sense to me
Sometimes I get scared that I've invented you
That you're just a coping mechanism for my loneliness
That I'm in love with someone who ain't true
Just an idea I used to avoid the realness
Of the people right in front of me who try
But I can't love them fully
Cause I'm saving myself for you
If I never find you
I don't know what I'll do
Can't imagine going through this life
And it's not you
If I never find you
Will this aching ever stop
Or will I die still searching
Will my heart just give up
These questions haunt me every single day
What if you're looking for me in the same way
What if we never find each other at all
What if we do
But what if one morning I wake up and you're there
What if all this longing was a prayer
What if you've been feeling this too
What if I finally
Finally find you