I Held On Too Softly - ArlenaZara
I held my breath every time you pulled away
Told myself love just learns to wait
I bent my truth so you wouldn't feel the strain
Called it patience, called it fate
I stayed quiet when I needed to scream
Afraid I'd ask for too much
I gave you all the parts of me
You barely learned to touch
I kept choosing peace over pain
Not knowing they were the same
I held on too softly, afraid to break
What was already slipping away
I loved you gently, I loved you slow
While you were halfway out the door
I never fought, I never asked
Just watched our moments turn to past
I lost myself in what we could be
I held on too softly
And you let go of me
I learned your silence like a song
Played it on repeat in my head
I stayed even when I felt alone
Lying right beside your bed
You said you needed time to breathe
I gave you space, I gave you all
I shrank my needs so you'd still see
Something worth holding at all
I thought love meant understanding
Even when it hurts this deep
I held on too softly, afraid to break
What was already slipping away
I loved you gently, I loved you slow
While you were halfway out the door
I never fought, I never asked
Just watched our moments turn to past
I lost myself in what we could be
I held on too softly
And you let go of me
Maybe love isn't meant to whisper
When your heart is screaming loud
I mistook fear for kindness
And silence for being proud
I won't beg a love to stay
By pretending I'm okay
I deserve a hand that holds me tight
Not one that fades at night
I loved you enough to lose myself
You loved me just enough to stay
Until it got too real, too close
Then you slowly walked away
I held on too softly, now I see
Love shouldn't feel like pleading quietly
I won't be gentle with my truth
Just to make it easier for you
If I love again, I'll love out loud
With open arms, unguarded now
I won't disappear to make you free
I held on too softly
But I'm choosing me
But I'm choosing me
I held on too softly for too long
Now I'm learning to be strong