I Loved You in Broken Ways - ArlenaZara
I loved you with hands that were shaking
A heart that was already aching
I gave you the best I could find
Even when I was breaking inside
I stitched your name into my days
Made a home in the words you'd say
I held on when the ground gave way
And called it loving broken ways
I stayed through the cracks and the pain
Hoping you'd choose me again
I bent myself so I could stay
Loving you in broken ways
I loved you in broken ways
With silent tears and borrowed faith
I gave you pieces I couldn't spare
Just to feel you there
I loved you past my own mistakes
Past every rule my heart should have made
I loved you in broken ways
And paid for it every day
I learned your distance like a song
Sang it soft just to belong
I smiled through words that cut too deep
Taught my heart how not to speak
I waited well, I barely lived
Gave more than I could ever give
I stayed while you slipped away
Still loving you in broken ways
I stayed through the cracks and the pain
Hoping you'd choose me again
I bent myself so I could stay
Loving you in broken ways
I loved you in broken ways
With silent tears and borrowed faith
I gave you pieces I couldn't spare
Just to feel you there
I loved you past my own mistakes
Past every rule my heart should have made
I loved you in broken ways
And paid for it every day
If love is meant to lift, not bruise
Why did I always seem to lose?
But I won't shame the heart I gave
Even if it couldn't save
I learned to love with open eyes
Not confuse pain with sacrifice
I'll keep the parts you couldn't stay
From loving me in broken ways
I loved you in broken ways
But I'm healing now, I'm finding space
I hold my heart with gentler hands
And love the way I always can
I loved you deep, I loved you true
Even when it shattered me into
I loved you in broken ways
But I won't blame myself again
I loved you the only way I knew
But now I'm learning how to love me too