You don’t want the rain
You just want the rainbow
I stopped saying my pain
Now I just say “hello”
Gave you my meltdowns at 2 AM
You left me on read again
Said you loved my confidence
But not when I was breaking
I learned to smile through the crack
Put a filter on my back
Now I’m scared to even ask
“Do you hear what I’m saying?”
They love the highlight, hate the haze
They take the warmth, leave in the cold
I gave you storms and sunny days
You only stayed when I was gold
You like me when I’m glowing
You like me when I’m going
Going up, never down
Never lost, never loud
You don’t like me when I’m real
When I bleed or when I feel
So I’ll just glow for the crowd
Pretty ghost, not allowed to break down
Mirror mirror on the wall
Who’s the loneliest of all?
Wearing cherry lipstick stains
While I chew on all my pains
Every “how are you” is a test
Say “I’m fine” and that’s my best
If I told you I’m a mess
Would you stay?
No, you’d exit left
They love the victory, hate the fight
They want the dawn, not the night
I gave you oceans, gave you tide
You only swam when I was light
You like me when I’m glowing
You like me when I’m going
Going up, never down
Never lost, never loud
You don’t like me when I’m real
When I bleed or when I feel
So I’ll just glow for the crowd
Pretty ghost, not allowed to break down
I thought you saw all of me
But you just liked the pretty parts
I thought we were a “we”
Turns out I was acting from the start
So I’ll take my glitter and my gloom
And build a castle in my own room
You don’t get the whole moon –
Just the side that doesn’t consume
Glow for you…
No, glow for me
Alone is better
Than your kind of company
Yeah… I knew it all along.