You kept a cloud around my door for weeks on end
Used my light to find your way around the bend
You think I'm drowning in the deep end well I'm not
You think I'm waiting by the shore but I'm already docked
I never wanted a farewell song
Didn't need the world assuming I was wrong I'm not but
You still echo in my quiet hours
And darling I've already moved along
And I think you should become a chapter I don't reread
Maybe it's time you knew instead
The autumn knew before I did—it let you go
And I don't keep score of battles I used to lose you know
I've been building something gentle out of stone
Didn't notice you were gone but now I've grown
I'm better waking up alone
'Cause if you only loved the reflection in my eyes
Oh darling you should go and find yourself
And if you think I'm saving grace for your goodbye
You should go and find yourself
Remember when you said my laughter wore you down
The only weight was the crown you made yourself wear around
And every silence that you filled with doubt
Tried to tell me my own story inside out
I never wanted a farewell song
Didn't need the world assuming I was wrong I'm not but
You still trace my name inside your phone
And darling I've already moved along
And I think you should become a habit I don't carry
Maybe it's time you knew don't worry
The river knew before I did—it washed you clean
And I don't decorate my life with where I've been
I've been learning how to let the still speak loud
Didn't see you pulling away but I see now
I'm better with the lights turned down
For all the times you made my world feel small
I built a garden where your shadows used to fall
I never knew how heavy quiet could be
Was I lost to let you rearrange me
'Cause if you only loved the person you became inside my eyes
Oh darling you should go and find yourself
And if you think I'm saving tears for your goodbye
You should go and find yourself
'Cause if you only loved the echo of your name
Oh darling you should go and find yourself
And if you think (you think)that I'm (that I'm)
Still braiding wreaths of blame
You should go and find yourself