I Stayed Empty Inside - Aliza
You held me like you meant to stay
But your touch always felt far away
Like you were here in body only
And I was loving you lonely
I made excuses when you changed
Like I was wrong to want the same
Kind of love, the kind of truth
But I kept shrinking just for you
And I don't know why I did that
Why I begged to feel enough
When your love was only half there
And I drank it like it was love
I stayed empty inside so you could feel full
I kept my tears in the dark so you could play cool
And I smiled through the pain like it didn't exist
But I was breaking in places you never kissed
Yeah, I stayed empty inside while you took your time
And I gave you my heart like it was fine
But I faded away trying to make you mine
I stayed empty inside
I watched you cool away in real time
Still calling in, we're doing fine
But I could feel it in your voice
I was never really your choice
I learned to love you quietly
So you wouldn't be suddenly
I made myself so easy to hold
But I was freezing in your cold
And I don't know why I stayed there
Why I waited for a change
And your hands were always open
But they never reached my name
I stayed empty inside so you could feel full
I kept my tears in the dark so you could play cool
And it's not through the pain like it didn't exist
But I was breaking in places you never kissed
Yeah, I stayed empty inside while you took your time
And I gave you my heart like it was fine
But I faded away trying to make you mine
I stayed empty inside
Now I'm learning the difference between love and a need
Between someone who holds you and someone who likes to bleed
And it hurts that I let you
When you go home about to meet
And leave me in pieces
Like I beg for the grief
So I'm letting it burn, letting it fade
But I won't lose myself for love
That I want to save
I stayed empty inside but I'm on now
I won't beg for a heart, I won't turn down
And I don't need you, babe
But I hate what it did
How I was missing the love that I let die
Yeah, I stayed empty inside
But I found my light in the ruins you left
I'm still alive and I finally choose me
And I finally cry
I stayed empty inside
But I want this time
I want this time