I kept a list of every letdown
Folded in a drawer beside my bed
Swore I’d never hand my heart out
Swore I’d keep it safe instead
But you were quiet in the kitchen
Talking while you washed the plates
Nothing big
Just honest questions
And the fear began to break
In the end
Trusting you
Felt like stepping through the dark and finding room
All the walls I built came down in twos
Brick by brick
I’m walking through
In the end
Trusting you
Is the bravest
Softest thing I ever knew
I told you stories I was hiding
On a Tuesday in the afternoon
You didn’t rush to fill the silence
You just stayed and let me choose
Your hands around a chipped white mug
Steam between us
Winter air
You didn’t say that you’d fix everything
You just promised you’d be there
In the end
Trusting you
Felt like stepping through the dark and finding room
All the walls I built came down in twos
Brick by brick
I’m walking through
In the end
Trusting you
Is the bravest
Softest thing I ever knew
If someday I start to flinch again
Pull back
Shut down
Pull away from your hands
Remind me how you stayed when I was trembling
Tell me once more
You’re not leaving
In the end
Trusting you
Felt like stepping through the dark and finding room
All the walls I built came down in twos
Brick by brick
I’m walking through
In the end
Trusting you
Is the bravest
Softest thing I ever knew