词:张梦雨
曲:张梦雨
I have lost the desire to speak
All words dissolve before they take form
for they foresee an audienceless fate.
My mode of expression degraded
into the most basic biological signals
aimless walking, prolonged sitting
and sluggish responses to shifts in light and shadow.
Even the inner monologue began to stutter
garble, and finally fall silent
My consciousness became an isolated island with its signals blocked.
The most terrifying thing is that I find myself gradually
forgetting how to"need"others
This self-sufficient despair is more unsettling than dependence.
I became a relic of the silent film era in an age of sound
living in a world full of voices yet
capable only of performing a silent collapse