I Will Smile First - SOL ARIA
词:Zhong Junxian
曲:Zhong Junxian
Hey
I will smile first
watch me now
You thought I would stay quiet
with my head down for the night
You thought I would keep your shadow
standing in my light
I had a bad day, I won't deny it
I had a few tears on my shirt
But I am not giving you the power
to decide how long it hurts
I change my shoes
I open the door
I let the streetlights
find me once more
The beat comes in
my hands let go
If you want to see me broken
you are too late to know
I will smile first
before you ask if I am fine
I will dance first
before the sadness gets my night
I am not pretending
I am not saying it don't hurt
I just won't let you be the reason
I forget what joy is worth
I will smile first
I know the room you left me in
I know the words you never said
But I found a song in my pocket
and put it where you used to live
My friends are calling from the corner
The city looks good on my face
If pain is waiting for tomorrow
tonight it has to wait
I fix my hair
I catch my breath
I do not owe you
my lowest self
The beat comes in
the color turns
If you want to see me falling
you can watch me learn
I will smile first
before you ask if I am fine
I will dance first
before the sadness gets my night
I am not pretending
I am not saying it don't hurt
I just won't let you be the reason
I forget what joy is worth
I will smile first
Maybe I am still healing
Maybe I still feel the burn
But I can hold my own heart
and still take a pretty turn
I will smile first
before you ask if I am fine
I will dance first
before the sadness gets my night
I am not pretending
I am not saying it don't hurt
I just won't let you be the reason
I forget what joy is worth
I will smile first
Hey
I will smile first
watch me now