Where to start mind paired with the heart
first breath of air it was there according to the charts
Some say it spawned from devils flames
Several levels measure pain
Devastating family structures and puzzled many brains
Small kid wished to live in alternate realms
Saw no fault of himself not knowing he was following hell
Would rather draw than pay attention in class
The wind pass through the clouds and his head floated with the draft
A lonely path self centered and not knowing that
The young years will fly by regrets will hold you back
Took a pass on chemicals longer than most
Strong willed but still not skilled enough to kill the ghost
That took control when he let the controls go
But you can never know how your story could unfold
His soul froze in space and watched the time erode
A ticking time bomb he let the pin inside the skin explode
Couldn't see you then sure as hell do see you now
Shoulda seen the end still here and wondering how
The question will remain can I make it with out going down
The answer will appear when its too late to turn around
What I touch take a devastating hit
Escalating quick sick stuck up in the grips
*******with this ****so much I'm in its clutch
Never thought id see this side of life let alone live it up
Realities gone I'm in the lost realm
I tried to open my mind but locked it in a cell
Couldn't tell when I hurt or when I helped
Self wealth felt when the dealt got dealt
And it did quite more than one instance
Not figurative I'm speaking realistics
Feeling privileged that I kicked it
Life force given driven through mystics
Had to destroy and rebuild
And stay grateful everyday walking uphill
But I'm liking the climb the pain fresh up in the mind
Stay praying that I stay in line
Couldn't see you then sure as hell do see you now
Shoulda seen the end still here and wondering how
The question will remain can I make it with out going down
The answer will appear when its too late to turn around