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Yeah look
耶，瞧瞧
Let me tell you about
让我跟你讲一讲
A kid named Steven
一个叫史蒂文的孩子的故事
He's slowly running out
他慢慢地
Of things to believe in
愈发失去信仰
Every couple of months
每两个月
His mom leaves him
**妈就会丢下他
For no good reason
毫无缘由的
His step-dad beats him
他的继父就会打骂她
Not too many friends
没什么朋友
Only ever had a few of them
就曾经有那么一两个而已
But recently they don't want
但现在
Anything to do with him
他们也不愿跟他一起玩
Always eating lunch
总是独自一人
In the bathroom stall
在厕所吃午餐
He just wants to feel normal
他只是想成为普通人
And be cool again yeah
再酷一点，耶
Always feeling like the outcast
总是感觉像是被遗弃的人
He's been going crazy
自从父亲过世
Ever since his dad passed
他就感觉自己疯了
He needs guidance
他需要指导和建议
And advice but instead
但反之
He only has breakdowns
他只有父亲车祸时
And flashbacks of the car crash uh
无尽的崩溃和记忆片段
It's been getting harder everyday
每天都变得越来越难
If he was still around
如果他仍在身旁
Everything would be ok
一切应该都会好起来的
Cuz his dad was always the light
因为他父亲一直都是
At the end of the tunnel
黑暗隧道末那抹明亮
But now that same damn tunnel
但如今还是那该死的隧道
Is looking dark and grey
看起来愈发漆黑与灰暗
He keeps quiet in the back of the class
他安静地坐在教室后面
And when the bell rings
当铃声一响
Steven hurries home fast
史蒂文就匆忙赶回家
Scared to death the other kids
他极其害怕其他孩子
Will kick his a** on the long walk home
会在回家路上揍他
Cuz its happened in the past so
因为这过去曾发生过
He's getting used to
因此他都习惯了
The black eyes and fat lips
那双黑眼睛和那厚嘴唇
But all he's got is a fake smile and cut wrists
但他得到的是一个假笑和割手腕
Wishin' he could walk right up to them
真想他能走向他们
And show them the scars
给他们看伤疤
And say look you're the reason
说到，看吧，就因为你
That I've done this
我已经这样做了
Maybe they would finally understand
也许他们最终会明白的
And go back to how it was before it all began
回到最初如何开始的时候
But he's just a little different
但他还是有点不同
So they taunt him and they beat him
因此他们奚落他，殴打他
Yeah it's all just fun and games
是的，一切都只是娱乐和游戏
They don't give a damn yeah
他们一点也不在乎，是的
His older brother ain't around
他的哥哥没在身边
In and out of jail
他老是在监狱进进出出
Hanging with the wrong crowd
跟着一堆小混混成天厮混
He's been doing coke smoking w**d
他一直在**，抽**
Getting drunk all his life he's a shame
成天醉酒，他是一个耻辱
No he's not too proud
不，他并不骄傲得意
Now his habits are rubbing off
现在他的习惯
On his little bro yeah
正在逐渐影响他的弟弟
But guess what
但你猜怎么着
Little did he know
他一点都没意识到
That everytime he did a line
每一次他准备吸食**
Everytime he lit a joint
每一次点燃**卷
Everytime he took a shot
每一次尝试
He was sippin mode
他都是在竖立示范
So Steven's sitting in his room
所以史蒂文坐在他的房间
Getting high now
兴致勃勃的嗨着药
Doors locked music up
锁好门，放着音乐
With his lights out
把灯熄灭
He just takes another tote
又来一只
Til his room fills with smoke
直到整个房间烟雾弥漫
5-6-7 hours til he knocks out
好几个小时，一直到不省人事
Now he started stealing pills from his mom
现在他开始偷他的妈妈的药
8-9-10 at a time and now they're gone
一次偷很多，现在他们都走了
And maybe for a moment
也许有那么一会儿
All his problems seem to fade
他所有的问题似乎都消失了
But the high fades too after not too long
但幻觉不久也会消失
And that's when it really sinks in
当真正沉迷入内
And that's when it hits him
也使他意识到
That these god damn *** won't fix him
这些该死的药物无法解决他的问题
Curled up on the floor
蜷缩在地板上
Can't take it anymore
再也无法忍受下去
Now he's talking to God
现在他对神说着话
Cuz he's the only one that gets him
因为只有神能懂他
On his knees looking up
跪在地上，望着天
Can't stop crying
泪流不止
"God I know we haven't talked in a long time
上帝，我知道我们很久都没有交谈过了
But this time I really need you
但这一次我真的很需要你
Please God help me say something
求您了，上帝，帮助我，跟我说点什么
Just give me a sign
给我一点讯息
Because now I'm falling apart and
因为现在我已经崩溃了
I don't think that I can do it
我做不到了
Please God give me the strength
请上帝赐给我力量
To pull through it Tell me
让我度过难关，请告诉我
Should I give up
我应该放弃吗
I could end it all right now
我现在就可以结束这一切
I just don't know
我就是不知道
If I'm brave enough to do it
我是否足够勇敢去做
Cuz there's gotta
因为
Be a better way than suicide
肯定有比自杀更好的方法
Try to wait it out
试着等待
Give it time you'll be fine
给一点时间，你会好起来的
But it's been so long
但这已经过了这么长的时间
And I still haven't been able to get rid
我仍然没能摆脱
Of all the thoughts that I feel inside
我内心所有的想法
So sick so angry so mad
很恶心，很气愤，很疯狂
And to top it off no one even knows that"
最糟糕的是，甚至没人知道
That's when he stood up
当他起身
Wiped his tears
擦干泪水
Walked over to his desk
走到他的书桌旁
And got a pen and a notepad
拿了一支笔和记事本
He just couldn't see it getting any better
他不见好转
So on a cold dark night in December
所以在12月的一个寒冷的夜晚
Steven knew exactly
史蒂文清楚地知道
What he had to do
他该做什么
But first he sat down
但他首先坐下来
And wrote a couple letters
写了几封信
One to his step-dad
一封是给他的继父
One to his mother
一封是给他的妈妈
Couple to the kids at school
好几封是给学校那几个孩子
One to his brother
一封是给他的哥哥
Bringing them the pain
也要把痛苦带给他们
That they once brought him
那些他们曾经给他带来的伤痛
Tear drops on the paper one after another
泪水一颗颗滴落在信纸上
Yeah I hope that you all feel guilty
耶，我希望你们都感到负罪感
Cuz I'm broken now
因为我现在完了
And you can't heal me
你不能治好我
And now you're all an accompliss in murder
如今你就是杀手
Each and every one of you
你们中的每一个
Has chipped in to kill me
都沾满我死亡的鲜血
So the reason that
因此
I'm writing you this evening
今晚我给你写下这些的目的
Is to say goodbye
就是说声再见
And to tell you that I'm leaving
也跟你说一声，我走了
But don't hold your breath
但别屏住呼吸
Cuz I ain't never coming back
因为我是不会再回来了
Sincerely yours Steven
你真挚的史蒂文