Look

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They say the unit works in a strange way

他们说这个装置的运转方式很奇怪

And it must be true because we ain't from the same background or same place

这肯定是真的因为我们来自不同的背景不同的地方

But me and lesley ended up on that same train

但我和莱斯利最后还是走上了同一条路

I'm talking everyday I used to wake up around seven or eight

我说的是每天我常常七八点钟醒来

To catch the 906 from norbury station

在诺布里车站搭上906型车

Two different worlds in the same location and

同一个地方有两个不同的世界

One day we ended up speaking

有一天我们终于开口了

And I would talk about college she would talk about meetings

我会聊大学的事她会聊见面的事

And how she's planning on leaving

她打算怎么离开

How she hates what she does but she needs it

她对自己的所做所为深恶痛绝可她志在必得

I asked her what she was doing it's the weekend

我问她周末在做什么

And she said she said

她说她说

I don't know myself

我不了解我自己

I don't know myself no more

我再也不了解自己

She used to be the life of the party for true

她曾经是派对上的焦点人物

And now she going out hardly ever

如今她几乎不出门

Her man got her in the yard forever

她的男友让她永远待在院子里

And her friends wanna help but it's hard to tell her

她的朋友想帮她但我很难开口

Hard to let her know that her man's possessive and aggressive

很难让她知道她的男人占有欲强而且咄咄逼人

And she can't even see it but for them

除了他们她什么都看不见

It's clear as day she's in a situation

显而易见她陷入了困境

Her friend hannah had a man that was manipulative

她的朋友Hannah有个很会控制人的男人

So she could see it from a mile off

这样她就能在一英里之外看到

Turtleneck jumpers makeup around the eye spots

高领毛衣眼部周围化妆

All the signs were there

所有迹象都在眼前

But lesley made it seem a light affair

但莱斯利让这一切看起来轻而易举

Said it wasn't right to share

说不该与人分享

Her boyfriend he was a mystery man

她的男友是个谜一样的男人

I didn't know much about him but he's been in the can

我不太了解他但他一直在监狱里

Name's jason he's a bad boy with no reasoning

我叫Jason他是个没有理智的坏小子

To be honest I don't know what les' sees in him

说实话我不知道莱斯看上他什么了

'Cause she's a good girl with a sweet heart

因为她是个心地善良的好女孩

But they've both got demons and a deep past

但他们都有心魔都有很深的过去

You know opposites attract apparently

你知道异性相吸

I never heard her talk about her family ever uh-uh

我从未听她谈起她的家人

He was all that she had

他是她的全部

Until they had an argument and he stopped calling her back

直到他们吵了一架他不再给她回电话

And I don't know if there was more to the story than that

我不知道是否还有别的原因

'Cause she plays things down but according to that

因为她总是轻描淡写可根据这一点

He went missing one day in the morning he ran

他失踪了有一天早上他逃跑了

She's doing overtime struggling affording the flat

她加班加点拼命挣钱

'Til she lost her job it f**ked all of her plans

直到她丢了工作她的计划都泡汤了

Couldn't pay the rent borrowing and calling for cash

付不起房租四处借钱

But hannah she was there for her cared for her

但是Hannah她一直在她身边关心她

When I saw les' she told me

当我看见莱斯时她告诉我

I don't know myself

我不了解我自己

I don't know myself no more

我再也不了解自己

Les' saying I got nothing to live for

Les说我没有什么活下去的理由

It's been raw but david I ain't never been this poor

日子很艰难但是David我从来没有这么穷过

There's no income my boyfriend left me

我的男朋友没有给我留下任何收入

So how the f**k am I going to survive when this kid's born

所以当这个孩子出生时我该如何存活

I said it's a blessing as mad as it is

我说这是一种幸福尽管我很疯狂

And les' I never even knew that you were having a kid

还有莱斯我都不知道你有孩子了

Bro she's four months pregnant young and neglected

兄弟她怀孕四个月了年纪轻轻被人忽视

Single but I don't think she wants to accept it

单身但我觉得她不愿接受现实

So she's still texting exes trying to get this

所以她还在给前任发短信想要得到这个消息

Back on track but I don't think that she gets it

重回正轨可我觉得她并不明白

It's emotional obsession clinical depression

这是情感上的执念临床上的抑郁症

Life is a lesson

人生就是一堂课

And you ain't got to sit and cry

你不必坐着哭泣

And lesley living in this gift called life

莱斯利活在这所谓的生命里

There's no better gift than the gift of life

生命就是最好的礼物

So can you handle it

所以你能否应对

I don't know myself

我不了解我自己

I don't know myself no more

我再也不了解自己

But that changed her perspective

但这改变了她的看法

Late in December her baby's expected to drop

十二月底她的孩子就会出生

She's accepted excited electric pumped

她接受了我的心意激动不已

Only got to wait a few months

只需要再等几个月

Her and hannah had lunch

她和Hannah共进午餐

Told her she's pregnant

告诉她她怀孕了

And they're the closest of bredrins

他们是最亲密的人

So she didn't stunt to tell her I think that it's an error

所以她没有装腔作势告诉她我觉得这是个错误

You ain't a mum for a day you're a mum forever

你没有做过母亲一天你会做一辈子的母亲

Whatever and you and jason break up whenever

不管什么时候你和Jason分手

If I'm honest that's something you should have done together

说实话这是你们应该一起做的事

She doesn't know that her and jason are going out again

她不知道她和Jason又要约会了

And jason doesn't know that lesley's carrying a child for them

杰森不知道莱斯利为他们生了孩子

She had daydreams of settling down with jason better 'cause now they're together it's wild

她做着白日梦希望能和Jason更好地安定下来因为现在他们在一起了真是疯狂

Feeling like she needs to call her friends and tell 'em

感觉她需要给她的朋友打电话告诉他们

'Cause while she's letting him down but most of them are never around

因为虽然她让他失望但大多数人都不在她身边

She calls hannah the next day

第二天她给Hannah打电话

Still tryna figure out the best way to tell her

我还在想怎么跟她说

That she's getting back together with an ex-flame

她和前任复合了

So she left her a voicemail

所以她给她留了语音信箱

Like yo hannah it's les' can you call me back

就像你Hannah我是Les你能否给我回电话

I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that

我想谈谈孩子你我Jason所有的一切

I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back

我一直觉得我需要找回我的气场

I used to be so f**king confident

我曾经自信满满

But these days I swear that-

但这些日子我发誓

I don't know my self

我不了解我自己

I don't know myself no more

我再也不了解自己

It's 330 lesley was meant to get a scan

时速三百三十英里莱斯里注定要接受检查

But today I think she's going home early

但今天我想她会提前回家

Tryna talk to jason tell him 'bout the kid

我想和Jason谈谈告诉他孩子的事

Addressing any reservations

消除任何保留意见

Have that conversation

好好谈谈

Middle of the summer and it's raining

盛夏时节雨纷纷

Waiting at the train station

在火车站等待

Hella cancellations

各种取消

So she gets a taxi sitting in a backseat

她叫了一辆出租车坐在后座上

Blue jean jacket and a maxi

蓝色牛仔夹克和一件大礼服

Actually tired and her legs are aching

她筋疲力尽双腿酸痛

Touched the destination

到达目的地

Way faster than the cab driver's estimation

比出租车司机估计的速度快多了

She put the key in the door

她把钥匙插在门上

She couldn't believe what she see on the floor

她不敢相信地板上的场景

Some size five trainers raging

穿着五号运动鞋招摇过市

Tears in her eyes but it's cool 'cause they must be the neighbors

她眼含泪水但没关系因为他们肯定是邻居

And jason's in the bedroom fully naked

杰森一丝不挂地躺在卧室里

Lesley running up the stairs but she's making noise

莱斯利跑上楼梯可她制造噪音

And she can hear jason's voice

她能听到杰森的声音

Saying hide in the closet

说藏在衣柜里

But he's made his choice

但他已经做出了选择

So she bursts in saying what kind of person would cheat on his pregnant girlfriend

所以她突然说什么样的人会背叛他怀孕的女友

Jason saying what the f**k you're pregnant what the f**k

杰森说什么你怀孕了什么鬼

You weren't even gonna tell me I mean what the f**k

你甚至不打算告诉我我是说什么鬼

What do you want from us

你想要我们怎么样

Nah you ain't in love you just wanna love

你没有恋爱你只想恋爱

Lesley telling jason I don't wanna love

莱斯利告诉杰森我不想爱

I don't want a you and I i don't want an us

我不想要你我也不想要我们

And also I don't wanna talk loads

我也不想说太多

One more line before I dash like morse code

在我像莫尔斯电码一样横冲直撞之前再多说一句

Open the wardrobe

打开衣柜

And jason's on the edge

Jason在崩溃边缘

'I just wanna see if she was prettier than me slimmer than me

我只想看看她是不是比我漂亮比我苗条

Maybe your baby's similar to me

也许你的宝贝和我很像

Maybe you wanted someone thicker than me fitter than me

也许你想要一个比我更丰满更健康的人

To satisfy you quicker than me

比我更快满足你

I got your baby in my stomach and you did this to me

我把你的宝贝抱在怀里你却这样对我

What did I ever do to you for you to finish with me

我对你做了什么让你和我一刀两断

I didn't believe my girls but they were thinking of me

我不相信我的姐妹可她们对我念念不忘

And give it to me the wardrobe give me the key

给我衣柜给我钥匙

I was pulling up the door but jason's bigger than me

我开着车门可Jason比我高大

Literally I remember viscerally

我真的记得很清楚

Jason pulling from behind me now he's gripping on me

Jason从我身后现身他紧紧抓住我

White flashes eye gashes when he's hitting me see

当他我的时候眼白闪烁你看

I just wanted to disappear I wasn't living for me

我只想消失我不是为自己而活

Physically I shut the f**king doors quick as can be

我迅速关上车门

He's outside asking why I made him do what he did

他在外面问我为什么让他做那些事

Using a kick to open up the room that I'm in

用一脚踢开我的世界

I'm feeling afraid barricaded with a chair in the handle

我感觉很害怕手里握着一把椅子

I'm hearing sirens but I just wanna run away but I can't

我听到警笛声可我只想逃跑可我做不到

Jason's gone by the time police are comin'

警察来的时候杰森已经走了

They saw that ain't no one else in the house

他们看见这房子里没有别人

And feds are running through the door shouting

警察跑进来大喊

We have reports of an argument with a woman'

我们接到报告说和一个女人发生了争吵

There's blood all over the floor and it's splattered onto the wall

血撒了一地溅到了墙上

Les-ley's on the bed and she's tryna speak to the feds

Lesley躺在床上她想和警察谈谈

She's deep in the stress and it's meters above her head

她被深深的压力压得喘不过气来

If anything she couldn't even say anything

要说什么她什么都说不出来

But she's got this really sharp pain where her belly is

但她的腹部真的很疼

So they call an ambulance lesley didn't plan for this

他们叫了救护车莱斯利没想到会这样

Police are in the room tryna find the missing piece of the puzzle

警察在房间里试图找到缺失的那一块拼图

Until they stumble on something that's kind of random

直到他们偶然发现了一些东西

It's a phone in the wardrobe

这是衣柜里的一部手机

They had five missed phone calls from jason

杰森给他们打了五个电话没有接

And also a couple other numbers so they thinking that it's no help

还有几个电话号码所以他们觉得没有用

Until they play the voicemail like

直到他们播放语音信箱里的声音

Yo hannah it's les' can you call me back

汉娜我是莱斯你能否给我回电话

I wanna talk about the baby you me jason all of that

我想谈谈孩子你我Jason所有的一切

I've been feeling like I need to get my aura back

我一直觉得我需要找回我的气场

I used to be so f**king confident

我曾经自信满满

But these days I swear that

但这些日子我发誓

I don't know my self

我不了解我自己

I don't know myself no more

我再也不了解自己

She felt sick to her stomach she started panicking

她感觉胃不舒服她开始惊慌失措

Mind rattling tryna understand what hannah did

我的心怦怦直跳想要了解Hannah做了什么

Battling the shame 'cause the situation embarrassing

与耻辱抗争因为处境尴尬

She's tryna fathom it betrayed by her own garrison

她想搞明白这一切被自己的军队背叛了

Meanwhile she's on the bed tryna manage this

与此同时她躺在床上试图解决问题

Piercing pain in the stomach she couldn't handle it

撕心裂肺的疼痛让她无法承受

Now she's waiting for an ambulance

现在她在等救护车

Look

And I know she's strong but when I heard about

我知道她很坚强但当我听说

What happened I was over-shocked

发生了什么事我震惊不已

Her nose was gone her jaw line shattered and rocked

她的鼻子没有了她的下巴伤痕累累

They said her baby was the reason she was holding on

他们说她的孩子是她坚持下去的原因

She dozing off doctors getting no response

她昏昏欲睡医生没有回应

Her heart rate slowing down and they don't know what's wrong

她的心跳加速他们不知道怎么回事

Picked her up got her out the home

接她回家把她带走

And onto the stretcher for good measures but she's fading out oh

被抬上担架准备采取更好的措施但她渐渐消失

She took damage to the brain

她的大脑受到损伤

And now she's in a coma as we speak

现在我们说话的时候她还在昏迷中

But I ain't sure if she can make it out

但我不确定她能否挺过来

You see this time that I'm taking out

你看这一次我要拿出

To tell you the story is more than a song or track

告诉你这个故事不只是一首歌或是一首歌曲

It's a message to a woman with a toxic man

这是给身边有毒瘤男人的女人的信息

I'm begging you to get support if you're lost or trapped

如果你迷失或是身陷囹圄我乞求你的支持

I understand that I can never understand

我知道我永远无法理解

And I ain't saying that it's easy but it must be right

我不是说这易如反掌可这肯定是正确的

Some of your sisters aunties mums or wives

你的姐妹阿姨妈妈或是妻子

Are f**ked aside and they will never touch on why

都被丢在一边他们永远不会知道原因

I'm touched 'cause I've seen women that I love though like

我很感动因为我见过我爱的女人

Cry little red tears through a bloodshot eye

热泪盈眶

This s**t's awful no matter what culture it ain't normal

这种事情太可怕了不管什么文化都不正常

Men try and twist it make it seem like it's your fault

有些人绞尽脑汁装作一切都是你的错

In that train full of people that you're taking

火车上坐满了你要带去的人

How many lesleys are running from their jasons

有多少莱斯莱斯莱斯从他们的贾森身边逃走

Angel without wings

没有翅膀的天使

Like the day without the night to bring her peace

就像白天没有黑夜给她带来安宁

A song without a voice

一首无声的歌

A spark without a flame

星星之火终将熄灭

A child without a name

一个没有名字的孩子

Oh it's just wrong

这大错特错

Like an ocean without a shore

就像没有海岸的大海

A soldier without a war

一个没有经历过战争的战士

How can we do this anymore

我们怎么能这样下去

A song without a voice

一首无声的歌

A spark without a flame

星星之火终将熄灭

A child without a name

一个没有名字的孩子

Oh it's just wrong

这大错特错

Well we've made a massive amount of progress

我们已经取得了巨大的进步

In this last year haven't we

就在去年我们不是吗

Feels like a long journey

感觉就像一段漫长的旅程

And I must say it's been a pleasure

我必须说这是我的荣幸

To watch you mature and grow in thought

看着你成熟成长

And in your career and life

在你的事业和人生中

You've opened up immensely

你已经敞开心扉

I'd be lying if I said I wouldn't miss these sessions

如果我说我不会错过这些治疗我肯定是在撒谎

But you know you can never stop learning about yourself

但你知道你永远无法停止了解自己

So you're always welcome

所以随时欢迎你

I'm just happy you're at a place now

我很高兴你现在有了归宿

Where you feel you understand your emotions

你感受到了你理解了你的情绪

And are in control

一切尽在掌握