词:张梦雨
曲:张梦雨
I have lost the desire to connect with others
Any proximity makes my skin tense
as if resisting a potential contagion.
The kindness others show
me feels like an overly strong signal,
making my receiver emit a harsh busy tone
I can only offer a sorry smile and then shut myself off.
I even began to fear my closest friends
afraid they would see through my corruption
afraid my negative emotions would become a burden on them.
My social mode has switched to"energy
saving mode": only responding, not initiating
only listening, not sharing.
I built myself a transparent isolation cabin
I can see the world's bustle
but all sounds that enter turn into silent films.