Just Broken - ArlenaZara
I still cry at the little things like songs you used to play
I still save your name in my phone like you might call someday
I walk past places we once laughed and pretend that I'm okay
But every smile I try to wear cracks a little each day
They say time will heal the damage but time just taught me how to hide
I did it hard and I just learned how to survive the nights
I'm still soft, just broken
Still kind, just torn apart
I didn't lose my ability to love with all my heart
I didn't turn to stone from this
I didn't close the door
I'm still soft, just broken
Like I've never been before
I still believe in gentle love
Even after you
Even after all the nights I cried the truth for you
I don't hate you, I just ache in ways I can't explain
Some wounds don't bleed out loud, they whisper your name
You taught me how to tell myself how silence can be loud
But you never took the light in me, you just dimmed it for a while
I'm still soft, just broken
Still warm beneath the scars
I carry love in careful hands but I still reach out far
I didn't lose my tenderness, I just learned what it costs
I'm still soft, just broken
But I'm not lost
If loving you ruined me
Then I'd still do it again
Because being soft in a hard world isn't weakness, it's strength
I won't apologize for loving deep and true
I won't let this pain convince me I was wrong to love you
I'm still soft, just broken
But I'm healing everyday
I'm learning how to hold my heart in a gentle way
I'm not ashamed of how I loved or how hard I fell
I'm still soft, just broken
And that's not a failure
I bend
But I don't break completely